Bit Better....

Life is continuing on. Overall it hasn't been too bad at all. There are just those days that are a bit harder then others. I've pretty much reached the point that although I love and care for Dave, I'm a lot more worried about him for his souls sake. I don't really mind if we ever get together just that he comes around spiritually to where our Father can work on him. We've been on our own for close to 7 months now and are building a new life, so if he were to decide to make contact but not come back home I think we'd be okay. Especially if he isn't interested in meetings. It'd be hard, I know that, but after this long on our own it'd be okay. I just love the way it has all worked out though. Looking back over the last months, and even before that, I can see the our Father's hand in our lives. The preparing so to speak before Dave left and just the guiding and comforting since. There's a verse I've really appreciated this last week in 1 John. "Perfect love casts out fear" to know I can go through life without fear because I have a Father that knows exactly what I need and when I have complete love and trust in Him then those needs (not wants) will be taken care of. No fear wondering where life is going to take me because I know that whatever happens is for the best. It's in our human nature to worry though, wonder when the jobs are coming in (very slowly trickling in, maybe a new client tomorrow?). It's a fight against the human nature, but with prayer it's doable!

We heard tonight that He doesn't save us from the experience but IN the experience. Daniel was put in the den of lions (the experience) but the mouth of the lions was closed (saved IN the experience). We need to go through experiences to grow spiritually. We won't know the power of our Father unless we go THROUGH experiences, then He can show us His power. But we need to pray for that help, acknowledge we need it.

Convention season is just around the corner and I'm so looking forward to it. So thankful for those who have stayed faithful and for the examples set.

4th of July

18 years ago today my husband proposed to me, just over 6 months ago it came to an end. We never know what is around the corner. I'm very thankful for the good years we had. It at least allowed a seed to be planted. Whether it grows or not only time will tell. Each one of us is given a chance to choose our Father's way or turn our back on it. I'm just so very thankful for the strength that can be found when I'm willing. I can honestly say I'm doing pretty well for the most part now, there's iffy moments now and again but I'm sure that'll happen for quite a while to come! There's such a comfort in knowing that there's a purpose to everything and it's only for our betterment that things happen, even the really tough experiences. I know i'm repeating myself but there's no way I could be where I'm at unless Dave had disappeared. As strange as it seems, although i love the guy dearly and miss him, it's probably the best thing that could have happened to me spiritually. I still don't know what's in store for Christina and I. My business is very slow still but with conventions coming up and preps starting in a month that might not be a bad thing!! I'm looking forward to being able to do more there this year and that will only be possible if business stays slow. On a side note I'm able to sit in my chair in the living room and see fireworks from the street behind us. It appears there's a new person on the block because that has never happened before! Pretty when they set them off but the cats aren't so happy about it because it's pretty loud since it so close!!