Famous last words probably but I actually didn't have anxiety issues due to 4th of July until today. Much better then early last month when they showed up a couple of weeks before my birthday. I've been trying real hard to leave things in my Father's hands as well. It's so easy to just do/say what we want with no thought to how it affects others, or we have an idea of how it'll affect them but decide "I" am more important. I have very close and personal experience with this and yet still find myself sometimes doing what I want with no thought as to what it might do to someone else. My tongue is actually what gets me in trouble the most!
We're still waiting for the divorce thing to go through. They ended up asking for more information. Information I'm pretty sure we've given them before. :( But I just can't dwell on it because it cause that anxiety thing to build. Maybe by then end of the month???
We heard something today that's stuck with me. Having good soil isn't good enough, the good seed needs to be put into the soil for there to be fruit. There are many, many people that are truly good people but we also need to be righteous, be right with our Father. And the only way to truly be right with Him is to leave all in his hands and be obedient. And that typically means going against what our flesh would think is right, giving up our own will. It's so easy to sit here and type this but can be so hard to apply at times. But I've experienced that peace and comfort that comes with that willingness so why does the flesh still want to rule? It's truly a daily and sometimes even minute by minute battle but oh so very worth it! I truly am one of the luckiest people! That rest and peace has been experienced, that feeling that comes over you all the sudden that despite all the chaos of life everything will indeed be all right. Love it!
Here's hoping the next post will be the next step!
