3 year mark thoughts

Right now I'm in overwhelm mode and struggling to get perspective. A certain amount of anxiety has been my companion for the last couple of weeks and I've been puzzled as to why. Normally after the holiday's pass it really levels off and life goes on but this year it's gotten worse. My best guess is the three year mark and the finality of it all (although I do believe there will be a day when we do see Dave again). There's also my business that went completely into full time mode and then some the last couple of months. Possibly between the two it's combined for a perfect storm naturally speaking. Yesterday was very good for me and has helped. We heard at special meeting to just simply stay put where our Father has put us. Staying put IS doing something! It's staying in our place. There was one worker that spoke that I felt was speaking my own testimony. I loved what she said about not having a taint of an experience in our life, let our Father guide through the experience. Leaving it all in my Father's hands is where my thoughts of went this morning. Possibly I'm trying to take it on and handle it all myself without leaving in my Father's hands. Really no possibly about it, I have a tendency to do that much to often. The anxiety that could be gotten rid of! It's amazing how the anxiety eases off when I get to where I need to be in prayer. Unfortunately my mind tends to create scenarios and I'm constantly pulling myself back from those. Feel like a yo-yo sometimes! :) That human nature likes to rule and I need to stop giving into it!!! Allowing anxiety to build is allowing human nature to rule. I do believe I got out what needed to be gotten out! Thank you to those who have read my rambling thoughts to get to this point! :)

On another note my hope is that Dave will occasionally read my posts. If you do Dave then know that you are loved and missed by your family. Life brings changes and growth in many different ways and I am very thankful for the growth that this experience has brought me. As is proof above it's a struggle to get that growth but in the end so worth it!!!