It worked!

We'll see how this next week goes but I'd have to say working in my home office is going much better now. It was amazing how having so much stuff with memories attached to go through was dragging me down.  A lot of stuff has gone out the door and I'm glad that round is done. I need to do it again in sometime down the road (Spring maybe?) but for now I'm happy where things are at. It's quite the lesson both naturally and spiritually. The stuff tucked in the corners is what sits in the back of the mind and makes it hard to go forward. I need to clean out the corners of my heart and that will help me go forward spiritually. To be honest that's most likely going to mean getting rid of a few more things in the house when it comes right down to it! There really isn't anything naturally wrong with what I do but I know that there's some things that are holding me back so that is what makes them wrong for me. Slowly but surely I'll get there!

Lesson learned the hard way.....

I really, really don't like learning lessons the hard way! Never ever e-mail a client info when it's been a VERY long 2 days and you're really, really tired! In my case, clients. It can make you look quite incompetent! UHG!!

Now the good news is I have pretty much made my way through the house and I'm hoping most of the 'memory land mines' are out of the way! There are two really small area's left I believe but those are things that need to stick around for my girls. Now to really focus on getting that bookkeeping done! But first to babysit the grandkids! Teagan is sick with the flu so grandma gets to babysit! We're really hoping that Scarlet doesn't get it! 3 weeks running of ketones wouldn't be a good thing!!!! She was quite cute today. She gets that 'look' in her eye when told no, don't touch the paper and you can just see her mind going.... do I do it anyway or should I not? So she very quickly sticks her hand out to touch the paper then quickly takes it back after touching it and walks away. Teagan shocked us today when she wrote the letter G and informed us it was a G! She did it with the number 6 as well. I also love to see the girls interact. They very clearly love each other! Many wonderful memories being made! The video I took hasn't backed up yet so that'll have to be posted another day!

Mornings Special thought

Love takes away the feeling of obligation to serve my Father. I NEED to have a love service because he doesn't want someone serving him out of obligation.

Fun and yet not so fun. :( / Garden

Scarlet never lost her congestion completely from last week and has now gotten worse again. :( Medium ketones again today but they were down to trace tonight before she left. I have a feeling this winter is just going to be a yo-yo. I'm not an expert by any means but it really seems like to me her body is producing a certain amount of insulin. It seemed like her sugar level dropped down way more  this afternoon then it should have with only a half unit of insulin given. She went from 267 all the way down to 50 2 hours later! As a result she got to enjoy spaghetti! And boy did she enjoy it! :) This allowed her sugars to get high enough so that she could get the next dose of short lasting insulin to continue the fight with the ketones.

My peppers are doing splendid still!!! We'll see what a solid week of rain does though! I'd suppose it depends on the how cool it gets at night if they continue to thrive. The one I have pictured is LOADED with new blooms that will most likely do nothing since it's October 21st. Just seems really weird for them to be doing so well when it's almost NOVEMBER!!! 

The picture with little green sprouts poking up is my garlic. I fertilized them last week so we'll see how they do! I've never actually given my garlic fertilizer. All these are the ones that I didn't dig up this last summer. 

I feel like my bookkeeping business is finally getting settled. This year has been a yo-yo. Just as I think it's going good something happens that upsets the apple cart. But I've felt like I'm missing something most of the year and that feeling is gone! Things are still working out to a point but it definitely feels like everything is finally on a path that will lead somewhere.

Another hump gotten over!

Today was by far the most productive cleaning day I've had in a REALLY long time! Really I think it is the most productive day I've had since Dave left. Piles of donation are ready to be taken out. A lot of memories were found today and all is still good. So, so thankful that there is help in handling those emotions when I'm willing to ask my Father for the help! A bit more to go through but really the bulk of what I wanted to do is done. Work will be so much easier to accomplish and focus on when I don't have that list of chores weighing on the back of my mind!

Scarlet has been doing much, much better! She still has a cold but diabetes is again under control. That kid is going to send us on yo-yo's. It seems like we can't go a month without something happening! She took a tumble yesterday and managed to bite her upper lip when the teeth jammed. She was NOT a happy camper when we had to hold her to put pressure on to stop the bleeding! She is fine though. Erika appears to have broken the trend of Von Willebrand's (bleeding disorder). NEITHER one of the girls has it! Typically there's a 50% chance that a child can get it. We were able to completely stop Scarlet's bleeding in 5-8 minutes. When Erika had a bad scrap in her mouth, when she was little, I had to put pressure on for close to a half hour before it would stop! So we're actually pretty excited about that! Teagan is getting to be quite the little girl! She's counting, I believe to at least 15, and knows quite a few of her letters! Love those grandkids of mine! :)

Tough weekend

Slowly but surely I'm getting through different area's of the house that are minefields for me.  Last night was harder than I realized it would be and today will be more of the same since I'm planning on going through a lot of stuff. I also know that it'll help me focus the way I need to when doing my work at home though so I need to get it done ASAP! I'll be reminding myself what we heard a couple of weeks ago. All the stuff is simply dust when all is said and done! So let's see how far I can get today!!

Now the good news!

It's been an AWESOME month of weather so far! We've now had 5 day's in the 80's in a row. More than 4 days in the 80's for October hasn't happened since 1991! I need to get out and pick raspberries tomorrow and tomatoes. I'm awfully glad that I didn't pull my tomatoes yet! They're still ripening quite well! The last couple of nights have actually been close to 60. That's practically unheard of for this time of year. I'll take it though! Now to get out and plant some lettuce and broccoli and hope that we get a winter that will allow it to winter over!

I had my apple trees cut down last week, as well as the butterfly bush. Thank you Craig!!!! I just don't have time to deal with the apples and they were making a huge mess on the lawn. Next year I'm planning on planting some wildflower seeds where the trees were. Maybe some hummingbird friendly plants. Every year I have 3 hummingbirds show up.

I love a thought that was shared at lunch Sunday. All the stuff we have.... it's just dust! Some of it is sparkly dust but in the end it's just dust. If my stuff were to burn it'd turn into ash, ash is ultimately dust! It breaks down in the soil and turns to dust. Some stuff seems like it shouldn't be a problem however if it's something my Father has said wouldn't be a good idea then it IS a problem. I really have too much dust!  Another thought with dust is it tends to get into the corners and cracks. Little seeds of discontentment, unrest etc. can get into those corners and cracks, take root and grow into huge issues. Those types of emotions cause division with my Father. I love that I can safely leave all in my Father's hands!

Cold, ear infection, diabetes....

What a week Scarlet is having! :(  She started getting sick with a cold this last week and it has now turned into an ear infection. Erika took her to the doctor today and they gave her an antibiotic. Unfortunately Amoxicillin apparently has a fair amount of sugar since her sugar levels are now around 300! On top of that she's had ketones all day ranging from small to large. Large is NOT good! Her breathing started getting rapid and she was getting the beginning signs of ketoacidosis. Erika has to give her short lasting insulin shots every two hours until the ketones are gone. It's going to be a long, long night!  So much for diabetes doing well! We sure are hoping that she has the temporary and not permanent diabetes!

For those that don't know, ketones happen when the body is breaking down it's own fat for energy instead of using insulin. Ketoacidosis is the beginning signs of the diabetic coma coming on. So it's been a pretty scary day for Blake and Erika! Last I heard the ketones were still fluctuating quite a bit but the ketoacidosis signs went away.

We believe part of the issue with Scarlet getting ketones so easily is that she's so small. She's a year old and 18 lbs. That's in the +/-20%, her height (26") is in the 1% range and head in the 38% range. She's really nicely proportioned but has obviously got the small size of my family!  She seems to get ketones if she's teething, gets her shots or is sick or a combination there of. Unfortunately she just got her shots last week so that may have made her more vulnerable.

Another B-day come and gone

As Dave's birthday comes and goes once more I can't help thinking how proud of his daughters that he'd be. Erika with her little family and Christina in the leaps and bounds that she's made in every which way this year. He'd be a very proud father and an awesome grandfather.

This experience has made the girls stronger and also more compassionate towards others. You never know the struggles that others are going through and where those struggles can lead to. Sometimes what those struggles lead to are unimaginable and you wonder why. But really is the way things, as unimaginable as they are, turn out for the best when all is said and done? I'd have to say from my end an unequivocal yes. I'm hoping that the same can be said from Dave's end and that he's going through the same growing experiences that we are. We often wonder where he is at and how he is doing.

As I've said before, and probably will again, I'm very thankful for a loving and forgiving Father that has helped me through so many up's and down's. One who knows exactly what I need to go through to get me to where I need to be and is there each step of the way if I'm willing to ask for help.