Gorgeous day! Garden pictures :)

What a gorgeous day yesterday!! I've gotten out a little bit. I'm trying to get my lawn prepared for reseeding so I got the final spray done today.  Now to let it do it's work on the weeds for the next couple/three weeks then time for throwing seeds on it. The front lawn is really starting to look horrible since it got scalped in area's last year. The rain held off until the afternoon today so I think what I put down should be fine. Guess I'll find out for sure in a couple of weeks! :)

Scarlet's diabetes is on a roller coaster again. I have a feeling that she may be growing. It sure makes it hard to know exactly how much insulin to give before dinner. Some days 1/2 dose works if dinner includes pasta, other days, like yesterday, it takes a full dose. We'll see what tomorrow brings! (I babysit her Wednesday's and Friday's for now) It's hard to believe but Teagan will be 3 in just under a month! She's getting to be such a big girl! She was helping me yesterday with Scarlet's blood sugar stuff. Very cute and helpful!!

Bleeding hearts in full bloom!

My other Bleeding Heart.

Different kinds of Daffodils. 

A close shot of one of the Daffodils 

One of my flower beds

An almost cleaned up raspberry patch! Just need to finish getting rid of the ones that i took down.

A Lilac bud!

This is my Bay leaf tree. It's getting quite big!!! I've had it for a good 6-8 years now!

Morning thoughts

It's became real again to me this morning that my Father has created a little bit of him in me, my soul. If I'm focused on this life naturally and not feeding my soul then when eternity comes my soul will be lost because I've been much more interested in what I want then what my soul desperately needs. It will then be crying for it's creator (my Father) through eternity. Thus why it mentions that there will be mourning and weeping in eternity. Right now the busyness of life can cover up the souls cry for it's creator but in eternity there's no longer anything to drown out that cry and that cry becomes the focus. On the other side if I'm willing for what my soul so desperately needs, it's creators will to be done and love, then there will unspeakable joy in eternity. It's been very real to me that I need to be focusing on what my soul needs. It's much, much too easy to get caught up in the daily events of life and lose focus!!!

Bit bummed!

Erika took Scarlet in last week for another MRI and at the same time had a blood draw done for Von Willebrand. The scan is the same as last time which is good, there was one difference that was there the first time and they attributed it to the diabetic coma, it wasn't there in November but there's a little back this time (a fluid name that I'm pulling a blank on). So back to the neurologist in a few months to check on development, although she's doing just fine development wise right now. The big bummer is she tested positive for Von Willebrand, type 2b we're assuming since that's what Erika has. :(  It's an inherited bleeding disorder. Erika has it, Dave has it, Grandma B. has it.  So not only does she have diabetes she has the bleeding disorder, quite the bummer for a diabetic!!!! It does explain why she bleeds when she's teething, not a lot but there is definitely bleeding! It also explains the easy bruising when insulin shots are given. So over the years she will simply have bruises that seem to come out of nowhere. To this day Erika has bruises that can get huge and yet she has no clue where they came from. The poor kid! I babysat her today and she's either getting sick or teething. So she's on short lasting insulin since that triggers ketones without fail and sends her sugars skyrocketing.

On another note we are having the most gorgeous Spring we've had in a very, very long time! The daffodils are in full bloom, the tulips are in full bud so probably will start blooming soon. My honeyberries are blooming. The really bad part is the snowpack is pathetic this year so I have a feeling this will be a really bad summer water wise, unless we have a cool wet one. We'll see what the next several months bring! But I do think I'll be planting my lettuce soon!! Today was in the mid 60's and this weekend is supposed to be around 70! April weather in March.

The thought that has just really stuck with me is time reveals what the days conceal. I can think I'm doing so good but in reality I'm struggling inside to do what's right and if that struggle ends in defeat and not victory time will reveal that unwillingness for my Father's will to be done. Sure, for a time, the defeat can be hid but after a while it becomes quite obvious. I'm also very thankful for the assurance that no matter what happens, as long as I am willing for his will, then all will be work out exactly the way it should.

Tomorrow I'm going to be posting my garden pictures once again. :)

A very lovely Saturday!!!

It was soooo nice today! Christina and I took a walk around some ponds that aren't very far from us. I trip around them is about a mile. (Picture below) I haven't walked in quite a long time so it was a good start! Christina walks one of our friends dogs several days a week so she's in much better shape than me. :)  We also got the raspberry area cleaned up and all the dead vines taken care of. It'd been three years so they were in pretty bad shape!! Slowly but surely the yard will get back into shape. I got moss stuff down last Monday so that is starting to die off. On top of that I finished my e-filing to the state for last years W-2's for my clients and finished the fiscal year for another client. So all in all a very productive Saturday.

I starting to see the increase in energy from the Reliv that I'm taking. The really cool thing that has happened with that is that there was a spot on my forehead that had been there for several years and was gradually getting bigger. It was starting to get a bit itchy and when I asked the doctor about it she said it looked fine. Within two months of taking the Reliv that spot has totally disappeared! So I'm guessing that there's a decent chance that it was pre-cancerous. I have had one other spot that was pre-cancerous so it isn't out of the realm of possibility that that was what was going on with this one. It's so nice to have it gone now! I'm excited to see what other results will come! We're really hoping that it'll help with food intolerances.

Scarlet is actually starting to toilet train! She's at the beginning stages but there's definitely recognition of what needs to be done. Teagan is about 3/4 there I'd say. Hard to believe she'll be 3 in April!! It's looking like Scarlets diabetes may be permanent and not temporary. There's technically about 6 more months where it may disappear but so far it's definitely still an issue!  It's quite the struggle right now to know exactly what to feed her. One day one thing doesn't seem to bother her and the next day it does. Erika said she's up to 3 units of the long lasting insulin, but that gets adjusted up or down depending on what's going on, how sick she might be etc. I haven't had to give her insulin during the day though for the last 3 days I've babysat. So it's still as needed for the short lasting insulin.

Really looking forward to tomorrow. Wonderful meetings and lunch with a very special group of friends.

This is Christina's latest painting!! It had been a while since she painted. But I like what it represents (to me). The sun breaking out of the clouds. She answered the phone yesterday and my brother didn't realize who it was because of the change in just the way she talked. He said she sounded a lot more confident. She's breaking out of the all that's been swirling inside her the last few years. It's a wonderful thing to witness!

Spring has sprung!

We've had some pretty awesome days this last week and it looks like they will continue for the next week. However with almost no snow pack in the mountains this winter we might be in for a tough summer water wise. Hopefully March and April bring snow to the mountains!! At 5000 feet there is zero snow. We've had rain, that is actually right where it should be but here in the Northwest we depend on the winter snow for our summer water because summer brings very little rain typically. Usually summers are gorgeous! I'm attaching a few signs of Spring below. And does anyone want a bay leaf bush? I have one that's small and perfect for transplanting!! They do get quite tall.

A thought I had yesterday when reading was works=obedience. It says faith without works is dead. I need to obey my Father! I was reading up on gold this morning and the refining process. I probably knew this but had forgotten, pure gold is soft. If my heart is pure it's going to be soft and pliable and moldable to my Fathers will. Love those thoughts!

A significant thought-for me anyway!!

It hit home real hard today that what I am now INSIDE is what will show on the OUTSIDE in another 30 years or so. If I'm hiding resentment and/or anger towards someone, even if technically it would appear to be understandable, that emotion will be what I'm showing to everyone. There is a VERY good chance that I will end up with dementia. Between parents that have it and both grandmothers having it, it stands to very good reason that sooner or later I'll end up with it. Dementia takes away the filter that we have had when expressing words and emotions. What is in the head is what is coming out of the mouth. There's a saying we heard at meeting. Years reveal what the days conceal. I know where my help is to clear any issues up that are festering, even those that I might not be completely aware of. May the years reveal a heart that is close to my Father and that I'm showing love and care to those around me no matter what year of life that I am in!!

For the first time in a long time there was a early February thunderstorm, and a night one at that. It lasted about 1/2 hour or so with lightening strikes about a minute a part on average. Very, very rare for the Pacific Northwest in February! I do love watching the storms when they come passing through, although I don't appreciate the problems a lightening strike can cause!! ;) Yesterday had a good windstorm come through and was nice and windy all day. Luckily power stayed on!

How does the subconscious do it?

As always I'm amazed at the timing of the anxiety kicking in. I just couldn't figure it out the other day. Then it dawned on me Valentines Day is in just about a week. Luckily the anxiety becomes more manageable once I figure out the cause. We had a wonderful meeting last night as well so that helps too!! :)  A couple of thoughts that I had that have helped me this morning. I was thinking about how I wished that Scarlet was getting more of the Reliv product to help her iron (low) and diabetes which in turn would help her not getting sick as easily and the thought came to me... the same thing applies to you spiritually!  I know where my help is and yet do I use that source like I should? NO! So stop thinking about what I can't do anything about and learn from what has been revealed because of that thought! I also like the thought of using my short comings to draw closer to my Father rather then dwelling on the short comings and allowing them to draw me down into a pit.

I babysat Scarlet yesterday so here are a couple of cute pictures. :) She was SO good yesterday!