Long day!

The really good news is Christina is fine and the bad news is my car is not. :(  It looks like someone clipped the back when she was almost done turning and shoved her into a turn lane which turned into a head on since a car was coming into the turn lane. The extra good news is that I got car rental insurance a couple of weeks ago so, no matter what, the insurance will cover the car rental while I wait and find out if they'll total the car or repair it and while they sort out who was really at fault. After seeing it tonight at the I'd guess they'll total it. There was a wonderful good Samaritan that was there and helped Christina through the whole thing and transported her to the hospital in her car. The interesting part is this good Samaritan was supposed to work today but she just felt that God was telling her she had something else to do today so she called in and told them she wouldn't be there. She ended up spending about an hour and half helping Christina.

Luckily I was having lunch with Ed and Mike when I got the news and they were able to run us everywhere to get everything taken care of. It's wonderful how even the worst of things seem to work out fairly smoothly in the end.

As we well know, it's amazing how quickly things can happen that can change the course of a day and cause a domino effect into the following days. And just as days start taking on an even keel!

A short ramble...

I wasn't going to say much anymore but I need to get out in words what's started building thank's to this holiday anxiety. I'm hoping releasing some of it will help! It was going soooo well!

There's been A LOT of strides made in the last year. I've grown a lot spiritually (and still have a long long way to go!) I honestly was clueless how close to the edge I was. That's the biggest reason I'm thankful it all happened. Actually only one at this point but it overrides everything else that's been a struggle!!  I was happy in my little rut thank you very much, but my Father wasn't happy to see me in that rut!

The car that Dave drove and the chair that Dave sat in are gone as of this month so I'm suspecting that didn't help! But it's steps that need to be done. I just don't like the process the mind and body go through while it's happening! I'm also redoing the office, hopefully for the final time for a while. So when all is said and done by the end of the holidays all the change should be taken care of! Then on to a new year.  And to keep myself on track lots of prayer and lots of reading.

We've heard nothing so it's essentially the same as almost two years ago. I'm not quite sure how a person does it. I would guess a false identity would be the most logical. DNA still isn't officially recorded. GRR!! But they do have the samples they need now. Just praying for his soul. At this point that is the most important thing.

Sigh... I'll probably be on again soon. My thoughts are everywhere tonight! Happy Thanksgiving to all who read this!!

Woes of your own home....and a LICENSE!!!

Joys of owning your own home! Had to get one of my gutters replaced as well as the wood around the gutter. Luckily it appears that the roof wasn't affected, which is a really good thing since it's a flat roof! I'm just thankful that someone noticed it and pointed it out to me!! The yard is, at least temporally, cleaned up. The front looks SO much better!  Then on to blinds and next spring, repairing dry rot areas and painting the house. Hopefully that takes care of things for a little while but most likely something else will pop up!

Christina got her license last week!!! Hard to believe that my baby will be 18 this month! I really appreciate the thought that she's putting into her future. It's a struggle to figure out who you are and what to do with your life and decide what is really important. I'm thankful of the respect that she shows me as her mom and adults in general. Thanksgiving day will be the birthday day!

Everybody have an awesome weekend and remember those who have fought to keep our country free!

Tax season ends....

With a Bang!!! Pretty awesome, this is the first year this has happened. I've never been in the loop of the last minute filers because I just had my small set of clients and their stuff was long taken care of by this point. This year, because of my networking, I had a few business contact me to catch last years information up so taxes could be filed. And now that that is done I'll catch them up for this year so that the same thing doesn't happen again!
Honestly, I believe it is my Father's hand guiding this business. Some of the contacts and businesses I've picked up have been pretty spooky the way it's happened. Just pure happenstance that we were where we were at and the business came from it. I just need to keep doing my part because if I do then it will all work in the end, may not be what I envisioned necessarily but none the less it'll work. Just that it becomes pretty overwhelming at times! Networking, final year of raising a daughter, working, taking care of every day stuff, babysitting a absolutely adorable granddaughter. Time is at a premium! :)
Teagan is now pulling herself up to standing position where ever she can. She's a full 6 months now and heading into her 7th! Here's a few picture. :)  She was born April 12th.

8/11/12

9/22/12

 10/6/12

She is progressing so quickly!

Christina is enjoying her horse riding, although it's been a while since the horse is injured right now. :(

Bringing up to date

Tomorrow is my husbands birthday so I thought this would be a good update time! The last three months have been very very busy. Between work, having family visiting, babysitting my granddaughter and just general life the summer just flew by.  There were some awesome spiritual moments thrown in. That's still my main stay. I just love it when the feeling comes over me that it will truly be okay.

So I have to brag about that granddaughter! She's coming on 6 months soon. She's crawling everywhere and  is pulling herself up if you hold out your fingers. She'll hold on to them and stand up by herself, she's also starting to pull herself up onto furniture. She sits quite well by herself now. She can be a stinker though! That sleeping through the night... yep, not yet!!! And far from it! Poor Erika and Blake! (payback can be sweet! :)  )  JK..... maybe :)

Business has been going REALLY well. Especially this month. All that networking I've been doing this last year has really paid off and I'm starting to see the results. 3-5 events a week most weeks. It's tiring but the results are awesome! But on the other hand I really think that my Father has a lot to do with that as well. He's setting the opportunities there, it's up to me to follow through.

Do I miss Dave? You bet, but the sting is gone and life carries on. I often wonder what I'd do if he showed back up. I think that's something I need to leave in my Father's hands and if it ever happens, let Him lead my decision and words. I'm very thankful for what this last year and half plus has taken me through, it's shown me what and who is really important. I really wish it wasn't so hard for my kids or mother-in-law!

I'm thinking it's getting time to change the title of the blog and start posting some of those grandbaby pictures! Speaking of which!! :)  Here's one of my favorites. She was around 3 1/2 months here. Oh and it looks like she'll be a brown eyed red head! Grandpa's eye's and grandma's hair color. :)

Getting better!

Famous last words probably but I actually didn't have anxiety issues due to 4th of July until today. Much better then early last month when they showed up a couple of weeks before my birthday. I've been trying real hard to leave things in my Father's hands as well. It's so easy to just do/say what we want with no thought to how it affects others, or we have an idea of how it'll affect them but decide "I" am more important. I have very close and  personal experience with this and yet still find myself sometimes doing what I want with no thought as to what it might do to someone else. My tongue is actually what gets me in trouble the most!

We're still waiting for the divorce thing to go through. They ended up asking for more information. Information I'm pretty sure we've given them before. :(  But I just can't dwell on it because it cause that anxiety thing to build. Maybe by then end of the month???

We heard something today that's stuck with me. Having good soil isn't good enough, the good seed needs to be put into the soil for there to be fruit. There are many, many people that are truly good people but we also need to be righteous, be right with our Father. And the only way to truly be right with Him is to leave all in his hands and be obedient. And that typically means going against what our flesh would think is right, giving up our own will. It's so easy to sit here and type this but can be so hard to apply at times. But I've experienced that peace and comfort that comes with that willingness so why does the flesh still want to rule?  It's truly a daily and sometimes even minute by minute battle but oh so very worth it! I truly am one of the luckiest people! That rest and peace has been experienced, that feeling that comes over you all the sudden that despite all the chaos of life everything will indeed be all right. Love it!

Here's hoping the next post will be the next step!

Next step almost here

This morning is definitely a morning I wouldn't want to wish on anyone! My friend who's helping me with legal stuff and I went before a judge this morning. I'm not sure what the problem was but probably had something to do with me not knowing as much about the case as the judge felt I should. (I didn't have my case number memorized?) As it turned out SHE had the information that she was asking me for and she boy did she hound me for that information and asked why I didn't have it etc.  She had me swear that Dave wasn't military, raise the hand and everything. And I could be wrong and misunderstood her but when she had me swear that it really sounded like she said "Do you swear that he's in the military" of which i responded he is NOT in the military and gave my reasons. I guess if you're in the military than a longer time period for contact is allowed after posting a notice. She wouldn't allow my friend to stand with me. Of course my friend KNEW she had the information because she'd mailed it to her herself but the judge wouldn't allow her to say that. Luckily that gave me a clue of where to go. The good news is in the end she said she'd sign the papers after reading through them and making sure it was all in order. But oh boy, sure wish it hadn't happened on my birthday! But on the other hand it worked because there's no way I could have done any work after this mornings fiasco and since I'm taking the day off it worked out well. Pretty much lost it on the way home though and it's actually been quite a while since that happened while driving!

This has been a very hard step for me because I don't believe in divorce but legally I can't do things like sell his pickup unless there is a divorce to put it in my name. I can't sell the house unless he's off the deed. etc. I'm just very very thankful that I have one that is always there for me! A Father that I can always count on to help me through days like today. To everything there is a purpose and once again I learned where my strength comes from! And it's not me!!

Now the really cool thing.... Erika and Bobbie painted my family room/office yesterday! It looks so much better! And I got to spend some extended time with Teagan! Yesterday was an awesome day!