Habits....

It's become quite real to me this time how ingrained habits can be, ingrained to the point of us not even realizing it! This month I couldn't figure out why the anxiety that had been gone for a little suddenly showed back up. Dave's birthday is this month but not until the end of the month. I realized though that this is when we'd start really pushing him for what he wanted for his birthday. My subconscious mind remembered that and triggered that anxiety of another broken routine. I'm learning to cope with the anxiety better now, at least once I figure out the root cause of it! It got me to thinking of other habits that we form and aren't even aware of anymore because they are so ingrained. How many habits are hindering my spiritual growth? I need to do some serious looking at my daily routines, weekly routines etc. They could even be routines that happen only at certain times of the year, as with the 'firsts' that we're dealing with this year. This is a year of really huge changes and I want to use those changes grow stronger spiritually. Am so thankful we have a Father that we can ask for help from, a Father that will give us strength if we're willing to ask. A Father that will make it possible for me to continue to grow spiritually and have inner peace even in the worst of times.