Thankfulness/Sadness

Driving home today from my clients, I had such a feeling of thankfulness for what I have and all that my Father has done for me. Thankfulness that I get to see a cousin in January that I haven't seen in YEARS! And even get to have her stay for a night! Thankfulness for where my business is regardless that I'm back to growing it again (three steps forward, one back). And yet a feeling of sadness to. Sadness that the one I had said for better or worse isn't around, sadness that a loved one felt the need to flee from his family, sadness at the thought of how much pain/sadness/agony he was (is?) going through to do what he did. I know (as I've said before) that in the end it was really what needed to happen for all of us to get to where we are today. But there's still a definite loss/sadness that will be there for a long time to come.

I know there have been some that wondered why I didn't search harder for Dave. I wasn't and nor am about to go looking for someone that was clearly unhappy where he was in life. I really feel that we're better off letting a person figure things out on their own, then to be making it harder for them. Besides that Dave had the opportunity to come back home. I firmly believe that he was in the house while we were gone a few times in the next few months. He chose not to stick around. I'm one to get on with life and make the best of what is thrown at me. And with my Father's help there has been many changes. Changes that will make Dave happy when/if he comes back. He would be absolutely astounded at where Christina is now. Meanwhile we press forward and keep a positive outlook and keep priorities straight.