Next step

I truly thought most steps had been taken in this process but it hit me yesterday while I was mowing the yard that that isn't so. :(  There's a reason I've been having trouble getting completely motivated for work. If I am to be completely honest with myself it has to do with hoping that Dave will pop back into our lives and I won't have to worry about working full time to make ends meet. So now I need to work on that. I know that there's a good chance that even if he were to eventually show up that it could be years before it happened. I know my husband. So now comes the getting my heart and mind to the point where it's completely accepted. This up in the air part is very hard to get over. Everytime I think I'm over the hump I realize that there's still a ways to go. My deepest hope is that our Father would use me in whatever way is most profitable and that my husband would allow that seed that was planted over the last few years to grow.