All are within one week basically. Today was the parade. It was a tradition with us to get up nice and early and drive in so we could have a good place to park and to sit. We decided not to go and besides that Christina had a fund raiser thing for SkillsUSA at 11am, right in the middle of the parade. I was very surprised how hard today was. I guess those tradition things get you! Luckily that really is the only tradition day we had that wasn't connected to a special day. Now comes my birthday and then Fathers Day. Dave was the one that gave me my "main" present and Fathers Day speaks for itself. It sure makes me thankful for the comfort that we can have spiritually. It's such a struggle to keep the mind from dwelling on scenarios. Some days I have real good success, other days (like today) a horrible time. I think the devil knows when the bumps will come and jumps right in at the most vulnerable time. I keep picturing the thoughts being booted out and they keep creeping back in. GRRR!!! My thoughts keep going back to the shield of Faith. Deeper and deeper trust in our Father, that's one of the keys. He knows and plans the way.
I am frustrated with the lack of work, no matter how hard I try. And various means that I go about seem to not do anything. One of the CPA's I talked with said that they're letting people know and I know other's have as well. So I guess it's still not time for things to happen yet! There seems to be an occasional blip where something just seems to "work out". Not job wise but just kind of a step in allowing something to happen, kind of like winning 500 free business cards at a networking event last week. I needed those cards and it just kind of worked out. So I guess I need to stop the impatience and just let things work the way they will. I can't stop doing my part job wise but when things (or I am) ready to go then the ground work is laid. I do believe part of it is that I'm still not completely ready. It's amazing how there is a definite process, naturally speaking, that people go through in times of trauma. Having that help spiritually definitely helps, helps you get over each step quicker, but it DOESN'T stop the step by step process from happening. That's really where we can show our love to our Father and develop a deeper relationship with Him and His Son.
Keep it up, Aleta - be patient! I know it's tough (been there, done that between the time Ken quit his job and we moved to Prineville 6 months later). But when the timing is right, everything will fall into place and you may understand why you had to wait. Meanwhile, be patient. :)
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