A thought...

It came to me this morning why there's such a struggle to let go of things that my Father has told me that I need to let go of. I need to love what He loves and clearly if I'm being told to let go of something then He clearly doesn't love what I'm doing.

This old human nature is tough!!

Springtime pictures

All kinds of blooms!! I do love this time of year!!  The start of spring has started. Today was still pretty warm despite the rain. It'll be interesting to see what kind of spring that we have.

Daffodils!

All kinds of different daffodils!

Bleeding Hearts coming up!

Corcus's

More Daffodils

And more....

Hyacinth 

Crocus's

And more... : )

A hardy fuchsia coming to life. 

Can it get any busier???

I've got to say my business has officially become a full fledged one. After this last two months I'm honestly not sure what to think about it! The hours are brutal right now but I am hiring another gal to help with data entry so that ought to help!! I'm officially getting help with general house work, That's a huge relief! I just never, never dreamed I'd be at this place! My Father has certainly taken care of me! I know it'll work out, but the trick I have right now is to finish paying last years taxes (getting close!!), payroll and payroll taxes and then come up with money to pay quarterlies for this year. Money in and money out!! I have a feeling I know what my accountant is going to be telling me tomorrow!!

Meanwhile the weather has been beyond gorgeous! Today it reached the mid 60's but I'm hearing Battle Ground WA. area reached the low 70's. Unreal for the end of February. Trees are flowering all over the place. My pie cherry bushes are blooming, daffodils are in full bloom, crocuses are almost done and hyanthis are starting to bloom. Lilac's are budding out, I'll be curious to see how many blooms are on those! I'll have to get some pictures taken and posted. I do love spring!!

Sunrise & Sunset

Luckily my anxiety issues are gone... for now. :) Another key date comes up early next month so we'll see what happens then!  This last week has been beyond nuts!! The hours have been ridiculous but it's been good! I've picked up 5 new clients this month!! Amazing! Most of them are small. One will turn into a monthly for sure after catching them up, three will be small monthly accounts and another I'm not sure if I'll do anything once we get her caught up. Whew!

I did get out for a little bit this week and do a little weeding. It was so enjoyable! Lots of grass roots got taken out of the garden... those nasty ones that seem to wind everywhere. There's a nice pile of them that need to go in the yard debris container. The amazing part was that my hands weren't freezing after an hour of weeding. Normally they are in February. I have a feeling that the first of March I should be able to plant some lettuce and peas! They say your ideal job is one you can lose yourself in, for me that would be gardening! I've done it in bookkeeping as well but it happens much more often when I working in the yard. Hours can go by in nothing flat.

There was a very cool sunrise last week:

Notice the shadow in the sky! Mt Hood can be seen in the sky!

A little later in the Sunrise

And a gorgeous sunset!

Pippy just likes to be near now and again.

Mia is feeling quite neglected!

All it takes is a phrase

I went to lunch with someone yesterday and have realized this evening that a phrase they used has triggered issues. Grrr!! Back those first few months I struggled along and asked several times why I had to always be the strong one??? Yesterday their comment was 'You're a strong lady'. Mix that with Valentine's Day and you got a struggle and anxiety. Most of today was wonderful. Meeting, lunch with several special friends and Christina, meeting tonight; they all kept me occupied and distracted but tonight I had to face what I'd obviously been shoving to the side. I'm really hoping this wears off quickly since this week is packed with work and my big issue is lack of motivation when this happens! Once again I'll be asking for help from my Father! I don't know if I'll ever cease to be amazed at the power of the subconscious! We heard this morning that the longer we walk with our Father the brighter the hope is. I really like that.

I have wondered this evening where Dave is and how he is doing.  It truly would be nice to know but it's obviously not the right time yet! So onward we go facing each day as it comes. And if you're reading this Dave, you are missed!

I talked with my dad this morning and overall it sounds like he's doing okay. Yesterday was a big struggle for him since this is the first Valentine Day without my mom.

Perspective & Spring!!

Business has been going fairly well and I found myself thinking this evening about what I had accomplished. It brought me up short because it's not what I have accomplished in my own power. Where I'm at today could never have been accomplished in my own power! It's about allowing my Father's will to be accomplished. Allowing him to guide me to those who's lives I can be a part of and be true example to. It's much too easy to get caught up in the me, my, I thinking and absolutely no good can come from just being focused on ones self!

On another note, spring in the Northwest is arriving! Flowering trees are starting to show up, although I haven't managed to get a picture of one yet! Crocuses are blooming, daffodils are showing their buds and tulips are popping out of the ground! It's been on the warm side this last week so that's helping things along!

Crocuses

Crocuses 

Daffodils coming up

Roses are showing some life!

Parsley made it!! Yay!!

Chives!

Garlic bed!!

My agastchi has made it another year!

Therapy time!

This blog is my 'therapy'. A place to express struggles as they come up. To those that read this, thank you for 'listening'! :)  I got rid of some boxes yesterday that contained connections to a loved one. I didn't think a whole lot about it at the time but last night I was royally struggling. Those boxes have been sitting there for years and would have continued to sit there but that doesn't seem to matter. My struggle comes in a lack of motivation to do much of anything. This is NOT a good time of year for that!! It's just so fascinating how the mind and body reacts without a person consciously thinking about it. The mind is saying I might as well take care of that and the heart is saying no!! I still needed that connection. Or is it the other way around? Either which way it's typically, for me anyway, something that just seems to happen with no conscious thought. I'm hoping this is a short term struggle. I know my Father will comfort and that in itself is a big comfort! Now onto a busy day and we'll see how long this struggle lasts!!  

Oh my!!

I'm in a bit of shock at the moment! I met with a CPA last week that is very interested in sending business my way. I know he's interested because he's already sent his first referral! I meet with them Thursday afternoon. This one will be interesting since it's an antique shop and my mom had a shop for several years. Another CPA referred someone to me that needs last years information entered AND a bookkeeper referred someone to me that has multiple years of information to enter! And I meet with all of them Thursday!! More than likely I'll have to turn down the multiple year one and send it on to someone else. But, wow! Now the question is what do I do with my business? Grow it and hire someone to help with bookkeeping or??? I have someone that helps with general stuff like sorting and scanning receipts etc., not the actual bookkeeping. I think I just had my best month ever as well! Exciting and scary times! Luckily I know it'll happen just the way it supposed to so it's very, very comforting to have that assurance!