Rough days

With the anniversary getting so close and going thru some of the paperwork around Dave's work area it's been a rough time. I'm trying to get things cleaned up from everything getting moved last Saturday. I found the last card he gave me and it was the sweetest most loving card. It's days like this I keep reminding myself that God knows what's best for me and my girls. But those ole human emotions like to come into play. I read something today that said that without the battle there could be no victory and without the victory there could be no joy. And we're not going to get the victory without God's help. I'm not going to get victory once and be done, it's a series of victories each day. I pray one day my husband will be willing to go to God and get his own victory. Thanks to Dave there's been a lot exposed that I need to work on. A lot that I'd really love to have Dave's forgiveness on. Stuff that probably never would have been changed if he hadn't left. Hopefully one day we'll hear from him and maybe I can get that forgiveness. Even if we don't know where Dave is God does. And He's just waiting to help Dave, if the help hasn't started already.