It's hard.... some musings...

It's hard seeing all this advertisement for Valentines and having the guy you love very much MIA. I don't even want to go into stores. There's so many little things that aren't even thought of as possible hangups until something like this happens. I love Christina dearly and we do have good conversations but there's something about having and adult to talk to, your spouse there to talk to that's precious. It's something I took for granted for too many years, because I dearly miss it now. Would we make it without him? Sure, we've done over 6 weeks now but I don't really want to live without him. As I mentioned in one of my first posts though, I don't know what God's plan is in this. I don't know what God's plan is for Dave, or if maybe this experience will help Dave see that there's just a lot of misery in following our own way. It is absolutely amazing what can happen in a life if we allow God to lead. The hard part is letting go of things that you know need to be let go of. A person enjoys doing them and if it brings pleasure, temporary pleasure but none the less for a brief time pleasure, what can be so wrong? But that's the attitude that ends up making someone, who's fighting giving up what they know they need to, miserable, completely utterly miserable. It's amazing how quickly that miserableness can disappear when a person becomes willing to give up/take care of what they've been told needs to be given up/taken care of by God. When it all comes down to it, it's in Gods hands and depends on Dave's willingness to come back if it is God's will.