Turning the corner a bit?

We had a really nice evening last night with some of our friends and our workers (ministers).  There is something very therapeutic in those visits for me. This last several days I really feel like a corner has been turned. I'm really hoping it stays that way!!! It doesn't mean I don't miss Dave still because I do, very much so. But it is now to the point that I can handle that missing him better. With the circumstances what they are there will always be wonderings, they'll just more in the back of the mind because life does go on there's the everyday things that need to take priority. There's nothing I can do with what he did but wind myself up but there is something I can do each day for my daughter and myself to make our lives better and more profitable. The only thing I can do for him is pray that he will be willing for God's will.  I know he knows where Oregon conventions are and when they are so maybe one day we'll see him there....Of course I'd love to see him much sooner but only God knows that one. One sure thing is we are all much different people then we were when this started.  We just don't ever know what life has in store for us, and in some cases like this it's a good thing!

I truly believe it is only because of God's help I'm to the point I am. Now I just need to continue to let him do his work, keep depending on him the way I have since this started. There will still be bad days, of that I have no doubt. One will be our anniversary that's coming up in just 2 1/2 weeks. 17 years. But with God each day can be pulled thru, and with a lot less misery then I'd of had without him. I know there are still changes that need to be made within me and I'm sure I'll be reflecting on some of those as time goes because this really seems to help. Until those are shown me I'm focusing on the house cleaning. Hopefully Saturday we can get the living room done. Then maybe the kitchen, while i still go thru the office/dump room.... A uncluttered house is a nice goal to have!