Just Frustrated today

Several little things have popped up today that were reminders of Dave. Songs, phone call, etc.  He just dropped everything in my lap and said without saying it, deal with it. Where ever he took off to I do believe he regrets it, to a point since he hasn't come back. But I suppose when you cut everyone off so thoroughly it's hard to get the courage up to return. Only problem is the longer your away the harder it is to return.  I read about love and also about Job this morning. Those two go well together because Job loved God. I feel somewhat like Job in this case in that I did absolutely nothing, that i'm aware of anyhow, to bring on what happen. Just all the sudden the person i'd committed my life to disappears and changes my whole course in life on a dime. I do believe the depression issue is still a big factor. I'm thankful that i have God in my life so I can have the ability not to be angry at him, although i'm frustrated in having to deal with the various issues that have come up only because he isn't here. And those issues only seem to get solved the hard way. Setting up a account taking weeks instead of a couple of days because he's joint, lots of that going on. Guess that patience i've mentioned before is being worked on in more then one way. I pray that he can overcome what caused him to run enough to safely return or contact us. Either would be nice at this point.... taxes :(  but mostly because we miss him. Enough rambling for now....